Sex confession — Hate Living A Duel Life, But Have To Compromise

I know I am gay, it started since school and college days. Initially it was suck, rim and dry hump, soon got into penetrative sex. I cherish those days.
I am married now, still whenever get a chance, get back to my earlier sex life. Its tough to maintain both lives, pretending a married straight life, acting as a bi-sexual life and in mind and body a gay life.
I am sure there are more like me who have to compromise in life just because the society mayn’t accept my orientation. Now having a son and daughter, both at their teen, can’t do what I am supposed to do. Having a showoff perfect marriage, having enough money, I just can’t take a risk of throwing away all these for my sex life.
That’s all the suffering I am going through and have to, and am sure there are more like me. There is nothing better than a thick dick up my ass, makes me feel filled up. My dick on another ass gives a pleasure, but not like being filled up.
This is my confession.

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